The Winds Of Change...

I just got to work...man am I tired.  Not sure why I feel like I haven't slept in weeks but yesterday was an insane day at work.  

I downloaded the Smashing Pumpkins' album Siamese Dream last night.  This used to be a staple in my CD library but I lost it years ago and never obtained it again.  Wow this album is so good.  It brings back a lot of memories of that time in my life.  

Sometimes I miss my friends I used to have.  I remember a teacher I had in 6th grade telling us that by the time we graduate high school we will have a different set of friends.  I distinctly remembering looking over at my friend Brent and saying "yeah right!"...I haven't seen or spoken to Brent in 15 years.

It is amazing to me how human beings interact with each other as a species.  You develop extremely complicated relationships and float through all this crazy drama.  For some, you hang onto for a lifetime but for most they come and go like the waves of the ocean.  Every one of them is interesting but eventually they fade back and out of memory.

I have a few of those friends left.  Dana, Shawn, Steve, the Wilson brothers, etc.  We don't talk much though.  Every once in awhile Shawn and I will post some smart-ass comment on a My Space page or through IM but we haven't hung out in way too long.  We used to get together for my Halloween party every year but they usually do not show up now.

It is weird to get old.  Everyone has separate lives and it makes it difficult to make time to just hang out...with anyone really.  I am a firm believer that "Hanging Out" is an art form.  You lose the ability somewhat when you get older to just chill out.  I think the hustle and bustle gets you so worn out that you can't function.

When I get home, I do not feel like doing anything but kissing my family and laying down until it is time to sleep.  It is very hard to get motivated.  On the weekends I am better...a bit more energized.  I can't wait to paddle tomorrow.  My awesome wife got the yard mowed.  We are picking away at the house trying to clean things up.  We got rid of most of our stuff so it helped a lot.

I can feel big changes are in store.  I'm not 100% sure what it is yet but I can feel it.  But it is a good thing.  There are things that should be changed.  We take things as they come and deal with them in the best way we can.

I feel like I have so much to write about but it is distracting here.  I will be back later.

Be well...